Sometimes I wish I was more... more thin, more pretty, more outgoing, more mature, more "like the other girls." I know this is a wrong attitude, but it's just come to my attention that I am certainly not what I thought I would be at this age. I guess that's okay?! Life doesn't come with blueprints. There's just something I would love to have right now so bad that I almost can't stand it. It's a feeling I have felt before, I admit that... but it seems so much more different. I think it is because I WANT it in my life now... I'm ready to move on. I want this part of my life to start.
.... And it would seem so perfect if it all fell into place like I want it to....
But, I have this aching feeling in the back of my mind that I'll never have ...this... because for reasons I can't help...
It won't want me.
Maybe.
I just want to cry.
2 comments:
You are beautiful, interesting, and smart. Our lives don't always fall into place and we need to go after what we want. Find out what you want the most and don't take no for an answer :) I love you and I hope things start to look up asap!!!
It's going to be okay Rashelle! I love you!
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